So lately ive been very confused.
i dont know how im going to get to where i want to be in life.
im terrified of succeeding but also terrified of failing.
im absolutely terrified of leaving the school year without a job.

some peeps got internships at space and are producing segments.
i didnt even get an interview. which is lame cuz im the sci fi nerd and their all like preppy bitches. one girl got it because her neighbour is the fucking producer... like fuck Oh you dont know ANYTHING about star trek or zombies? No worries its okay u fucking like flowers and rainbows ur fully qualified to produce sci fi segments.... AHHHH
i know im bitching but whatever im in a bad mood.

i want a job
i want to succeed
i want my profs to realise how great i can be

ugh all good ideas get shot down but stupid ideas like method actor and Gregslist get moved into production. i feel like telling them u have no taste and this shit wont be on tv. but i cant.

im gonna keep treking and work hard make my ideas work and sell some then ill laugh and say suck my dick. cuz i will have grown one by then.
im also afraid cuz im 22 and i want to move out.... but if i dont get a job i enjoy that isnt happening anytime soon.

on a good note for the future there is an ikea opening up in Oshawa... i can always work there and be a starving television producer, fuck i wish i had connections